Evasive

Why do I feel
Something is missing
Why does it seem
The days of rose colored glasses
And sweet blissful love
Are over

I can't put my finger on it
It evades my description
So close to tears
And so close to you
But still so far away

What have we forgotten?
What has been left behind?
In the days of discovery
We found everything we wanted
Everything we needed
We saw in each other
Did we have this missing piece
Or was it never there?

Alone again

Here I am
alone again
feeling empty
no touch
no conversation
surrounded by people
feeling totally alone

Accusations
tearing us apart
but we don't talk
I think you know
that I'm really upset
but you avoid
the conversation

How can we grow
how can we trust
how can we be together
if we don't say things
that really matter

I have no one
no one to talk to
none to confide in
none to ask advice
so here I am

alone again

So Alone

you tell me that everything is alright
but I see in your eyes that it's not
and there is the feeling of something broken

I've waited for you all night
just to hear the words I love you
but they don't come
and I feel so alone

We want to build a family
from the cobblestones of our lives
but how can we move forward
when I feel so alone?

I get that you are loved by others
popular by the things you do
the only insecurity I feel
is when I can't be with you

you are my rock
you are my white knight
you are everything to me
but something is missing

why do I feel this way
after months of pure bliss
I'm nothing without you
and I ache for your kiss

you and I are so alike
similar in nearly every way
do you feel this rift between us
because it is tearing me apart

I feel my heart is breaking
and I really don't know why
your love is all I want and hope for
please tell me why I feel so alone

Fix you

when you try your best but you don't succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try
to fix you

and high up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try you'll never know
just what you're worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try
to fix you

tears stream
down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down your face
and I

tears stream
down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
and I

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try
to fix you

---Coldplay

Soul II

I find myself
Wishing it were October
and I could see you again
Your smiling face
your bright blue eyes
that see right through me
I can hear your cries
and your screams
but you can't wake up
because its not a dream
My words can't say
what I feel inside
The more I say
the less I know
the songs I sing
I wish you could hear
I bear my soul
Display my fear
please tell me
you understand
and when you return
you'll hold my hand

Why

When will I see you again
Underneath the pain we feel
We both need to be loved
If I could see you again
Our embrace could seal anything
Why are you so scared
to let someone love you
I'm not perfect
but in this world who is
Look around and come to me
I don't have the answers
but I know where I want to be
do you remember
the way you felt as we talked
I know I remember
the thoughts I had as you walked away
do you remember
conversations we had
I gave space so you could breathe
I kept my distance so you would be free
I often think about when we said goodbye
and I hope to see you again
If I had our goodbye to do over again
I would have been different
Had I understood what I felt
I wouldn't ask myself why
I am willing to take a risk
more than sitting in a restaurant
I won't ever go away
and I want you to know why

Changes

My job changed again today.
My cell phone bill is out of hand because of my job, but no steps to rectify it have been made.
I am slowly getting my head around everything but it's taking time.
Right now I wonder what the future holds.